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Tuesday, May 29, 2007

tis rubber keyboard damn hard to type!type words must type so hard,or else miss out some letters.daddy,change the keyboard pls!haiz.my result for midyear(srry so long then post),i lazy to say the marks..so i say lvl and class position bahh(to anyone who is interested to know,which i guess no one)--class=5/40.lvl=12/280(why our lvl so little ppl?complain complain hehehe).satisfied.i am at a loss of what to do over the hols.seriously.i rite a little about myself bahh.

-loves no.(i dont mean anybody who has that reg. no. ahh!!bie wu hui!!!)1,2,5,7,8,9,0.
-loves badminton as a sport most.plus captainball n basketball as 2nd.oh ya n soccer.
-loves taking photos(i not zi lian ok!)
-loves to have FREEDOM~~~
-loves english songs like 'where is the love','truly madly deeply' and'sexy naughty bitchy' and 'love you so' and 'because of you' and 'roller coaster' and 'world of our own' and 'let love lead the way' and more...
-does not like to have prejudice among race or religion or fat or skinny or tall or short
-i always think..'if i were in their shoes..'
-may seem introvert at first but if you get to know me,you'll know i'm the opposite{here are the symptoms-when i talk,it is equivalent to shouting/i become very pro-active/voice out my opinions more/keeps blabbering and smiling/do unecessary exaggerating motions/seem very hyper}
-have a cold sense of humor..uhh,wad is black humor ahh?i dunno leh

one thing to tell you all---

i am actually quite hyper..and ppl who see me at first sight may think i am really cold,coz i shut my mouth and fold my arms and do not smile and sometimes stick my hands in my pocket(not for acting cool purposes lah.it has bcome a habit).and i avoid eye contact with others.so sorry for my attitude!i really dont mean it and now i am trying to be warmer(~~~)at first sight.k?k?ok.

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today the BLTC camp was ok.actually,it was quite boring.thinking of tmr going to BLTC again sort of pisses me out.it is not really fun and the MC talks too loud.although the music they play is really nice.nice nice nice.eheheh.so sad i no cable,cannot transfer my pics in my hp to the com.arrggghhhhhh.whheeeewwwwww.basically yesterday i went to read some of my classmates' blog and i found out i am in serious need to learn new vocab words.ugh.i dont even know what is 'mundane'.but anyway i found out just now.hahaha.nothing to write so i am thinking of nicky for my friends-so here goes nothing-

Hui Yen-xiao yan zi!!!!hehehe.huiyen,jkjk only ah
Geng Hao-Zi Lian Kwang!!!!hahahaha(he got 'siao zi bing')hahaha
Pearlyn-zhang shang ming zhu!hehehe
Janet-net net..ahahah

WAITTTTT!!!!ALLTHESE ARE JKJK ONLY!SO SCARED LATER THEY BEAT ME UP EH.

dun dare to think of nicky for seniors..is considered rude dui mah...hehe,but they can give me nicky de.better be safe than sorry..later i gt a spanking frm them.hehehe

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Friday, May 25, 2007

my result was quite satisfying.today at meet the parents session,i felt really akward.hahaha.the comments by the teachers were like the usual..'quiet girl,needs to speak out more.' and 'dilligent and hardworking,attentive in class and 'has improved' and 'should participate more in group activities' and 'positive attitude' and 'has the potential to perform better'.it is sort of boring,because i am self conscientious and i know all these abt myself already,so it is not a new thing.i have to and will work hard to keep up my results.chiong arh!but now june holidays can relax first.eheheh.heard there is a class gathering on the 7th of June.the details are all second hand der.haha.there is a lot of holiday homework and they all have to do with the internet.science got e-learning,maths and eng hw is from internet download one,chinese is an essay to do.history and lt teacher leaving to attend school(dunno?uh,teaching school?).ok gtg le,bb.

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thankyou huiyi and catherine..im really moved that a senior would come to my blog and cheer me up..im really happy now..i promise i will be optimistic,coz that is the way to be happy under all circumstances.

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Thursday, May 24, 2007

from the beginning of the year,i told myself to be strong.i told myself i was not vulnerable,and was not going to show any sign of it.but it is hard..hard..i'm tired..too tired..i dont wanna care anymore..i tried.i tried.when i stood waiting for my parents for 1 hour,i didnt cry..i didnt want to cry..i didnt throw any tantrums when they arrived to pick me up..but i was SICK of that.i am sick of always trying to tell myself not to cry,to put a strong front in front of others..i am a crybaby..and...whatever i try to do,nobody will appreciate.im sick.sick sick sick.AARRRGGHH!!!nobody cares about me,they dont even know when im sad..they...they...care for others.in the eyes of my friends,i am somewhat a retard.yes i know it.and i am sick of it.i think about the past,and i get even sicker.really.to say the truth my relationship with everyone in mbs was not really close.i dont even keep in contact with anyone practically.i was a girl who was always alone.aways wandering by the canteen stalls,walking around and around.sometimes being alone makes me happier than being with the ppl who have hurt me..it makes me forget..it was the happy times..i pretty much managed with myself.played with myself.i wonder if i am suffering from depression,sometimes.
being lonely..
is sometimes nice..
some ppl will nvr experience it...

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Friday, May 18, 2007

i go friendster i c so many ppl their avatar is all pics of they all but me is not i cant help feeling realli sad and depressed...and they gt so many friends i so little only..nvm...i juz cherish the few close friends i have..but still...
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actually i dun wanna talk abt this 1 ,coz i dun wanna bring up the past..but...
today,after CO practice,i stood at the waiting area in my sch for 1 hr waiting for my mother..she told me 15 mins will coe liao,but she nvr,in the end i walk around and around coz i was too impaetient waiting for her and at 1 point,my father smsed me and said"reaching liao la.be patient"(the reason they were late to fetch me was becoz my father go see doctor.).but..but..
how can i be patient when ive waited for 1 hr for them?haiz...nvm.BE HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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today after CO practice,a lot of my CO seniors say bb to me coz they were going to tmart to eat lunch.some of the seniors nvr know me bfore but they still say hello to me.heheh.i was realli happie.the group was abt 10+ ppl,some clad in uniform,PE,or black t-shirts(the conductor calls them 'hei yi ren',hahaha).i realli like my seni0rs!!!!!they take really good care for me and they are really caring and humorous and fun to be with.some of my seni0rs missing were inghong,jingwen,and priscilla.gracie nvr come.haiz.aniwae today i really happy coz the seni0rs were really nice to me and they are very friendly.heheh gt some seni0rs in CO come frm same pri sch(mbs) as me and gracie.ok bb!

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Thursday, May 17, 2007

hi.hmm.ok,im quite happy with my results.but i sorta cnt remember it exactly.this is only test paper results,no value marks or wadeva.maths-78.eng-67.science-81.chi-unsure yet.literature-60.history-87.hope i didnt miss anything yet.some is unsure or not exactly accurate(:well but im not happy about janet not having enough confidence(hahaha).my maple lvl has rose 4 lvls since yesterday and although i know my lvl is considered soooo noob.but anything lah.i so happie!i tend to delete some of my posts after leaving them to the public for 1 day or so coz sumtimes i find my posts unsuitable.so im relli sorry i keep deleting posts,some of which i spend a lot of time writing and thinking abt.i sort of hate myself for this habit.sighhh.crap crap crap.my maple money is sooooooooooooooooo pathetic for my lvl,i cnt go anywhere now.so i am stuck in kerning city.arrrgh.i like henesys better.and the reason i rose 4 lvls in 1 day was coz a mapler named 'WoShiiChUCHu' help me fight de.i nvr fight anything eh.i just stand there for like,30 mins(virtually)and my lvl up 3lvl.lol----lipop.i wan to say tytytytytytytyty to that person!

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okay,i understand the previous post was a bit vulgar,but nvm,since ive deleted it oredi.

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Tuesday, May 15, 2007

okay i know the number of posts so far is PATHETIC and im patethic for having found a skin that i really like except for some of its pictures and IT DOESNT HAVE A PLACE FOR PUTTING TAGBOX SO IM JUST SOOO PISSED OUT.okiie but i dun feel like changing the skin coz i like the colour combination and the style.haaaaiiiiiiizzzzz.

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Thursday, May 10, 2007

okay.hi.lemme intro myself.my name is Hui Jie. hmmm...i study in Ngee Ann Sec,in CO(chinese orchestra.cello),favourite sports are badminton,basketball,soccer,swimming,volleyball,and captainball.born on 30 Oct,think i now dun believe in horoscopes;yep.likes reading novels,using internet(esp.),and more.intro over.this is sort of lame and pointless,seeing that my friends oredi know me enough.haha.

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