Lost In Beauty-

Saturday, June 9, 2007

on Tuesday i will be going to Bintan.untill Thursday.Oh yeah,this means that i cant go for tuition on wednesday.haha.must remind myself to tell cher.the place we are staying at is called Bintan Lagoon.i saw the pics on the net,it was quite beautiful,the scenery,i mean.today i read the lifestyle newspaper.the headline story was damn LAME.about two girls who had about 16000 friends on friendster,but they only knew 400+.who wants to add people just to determine their hotness or attractiveness or whatever?ugh.damn lame and waste time lor.at least if you interested in the person or know the person,you may want to add him or her.but just for the fun of it?thats really lame.dont tell me you are interested in all the 16000 friends.haha.anyway,i will be packing my bag tmr.although i know it is just a short trip,and i will not be likely to know a lot abt bintan just based on that 3 day trip.maths homework is so hard,and i dont even know to print out our working and answers and hand in to cher at term 3 or also submit via internet.i also dunno if i need to type out the working or not.if need,then,it will be damn hard.but for in case,i got type out the working and answer,and i saved it in Microsoft word.the working is the hard part.why not just let us rite our answers down?it really sucks!we have to do 2 online quiz and print and do 1 of them again on foolscap paper and we have a june holiday ass. of 42 qn to do.maths ter.science i think we got 3 wksheets to do and some more wksheets to be found on elearning.chinese we have an essay to rite.english we have to do an RD review and i dunno need to do log entry or not.my homework really sucks.i would rather go to school like normal and receive NORMAL homework,not those elearning or online lessons or whatever.i have online homework!!!!grrhh.

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Tuesday, May 29, 2007

tis rubber keyboard damn hard to type!type words must type so hard,or else miss out some letters.daddy,change the keyboard pls!haiz.my result for midyear(srry so long then post),i lazy to say the marks..so i say lvl and class position bahh(to anyone who is interested to know,which i guess no one)--class=5/40.lvl=12/280(why our lvl so little ppl?complain complain hehehe).satisfied.i am at a loss of what to do over the hols.seriously.i rite a little about myself bahh.

-loves no.(i dont mean anybody who has that reg. no. ahh!!bie wu hui!!!)1,2,5,7,8,9,0.
-loves badminton as a sport most.plus captainball n basketball as 2nd.oh ya n soccer.
-loves taking photos(i not zi lian ok!)
-loves to have FREEDOM~~~
-loves english songs like 'where is the love','truly madly deeply' and'sexy naughty bitchy' and 'love you so' and 'because of you' and 'roller coaster' and 'world of our own' and 'let love lead the way' and more...
-does not like to have prejudice among race or religion or fat or skinny or tall or short
-i always think..'if i were in their shoes..'
-may seem introvert at first but if you get to know me,you'll know i'm the opposite{here are the symptoms-when i talk,it is equivalent to shouting/i become very pro-active/voice out my opinions more/keeps blabbering and smiling/do unecessary exaggerating motions/seem very hyper}
-have a cold sense of humor..uhh,wad is black humor ahh?i dunno leh

one thing to tell you all---

i am actually quite hyper..and ppl who see me at first sight may think i am really cold,coz i shut my mouth and fold my arms and do not smile and sometimes stick my hands in my pocket(not for acting cool purposes lah.it has bcome a habit).and i avoid eye contact with others.so sorry for my attitude!i really dont mean it and now i am trying to be warmer(~~~)at first sight.k?k?ok.

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today the BLTC camp was ok.actually,it was quite boring.thinking of tmr going to BLTC again sort of pisses me out.it is not really fun and the MC talks too loud.although the music they play is really nice.nice nice nice.eheheh.so sad i no cable,cannot transfer my pics in my hp to the com.arrggghhhhhh.whheeeewwwwww.basically yesterday i went to read some of my classmates' blog and i found out i am in serious need to learn new vocab words.ugh.i dont even know what is 'mundane'.but anyway i found out just now.hahaha.nothing to write so i am thinking of nicky for my friends-so here goes nothing-

Hui Yen-xiao yan zi!!!!hehehe.huiyen,jkjk only ah
Geng Hao-Zi Lian Kwang!!!!hahahaha(he got 'siao zi bing')hahaha
Pearlyn-zhang shang ming zhu!hehehe
Janet-net net..ahahah

WAITTTTT!!!!ALLTHESE ARE JKJK ONLY!SO SCARED LATER THEY BEAT ME UP EH.

dun dare to think of nicky for seniors..is considered rude dui mah...hehe,but they can give me nicky de.better be safe than sorry..later i gt a spanking frm them.hehehe

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Friday, May 25, 2007

my result was quite satisfying.today at meet the parents session,i felt really akward.hahaha.the comments by the teachers were like the usual..'quiet girl,needs to speak out more.' and 'dilligent and hardworking,attentive in class and 'has improved' and 'should participate more in group activities' and 'positive attitude' and 'has the potential to perform better'.it is sort of boring,because i am self conscientious and i know all these abt myself already,so it is not a new thing.i have to and will work hard to keep up my results.chiong arh!but now june holidays can relax first.eheheh.heard there is a class gathering on the 7th of June.the details are all second hand der.haha.there is a lot of holiday homework and they all have to do with the internet.science got e-learning,maths and eng hw is from internet download one,chinese is an essay to do.history and lt teacher leaving to attend school(dunno?uh,teaching school?).ok gtg le,bb.

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thankyou huiyi and catherine..im really moved that a senior would come to my blog and cheer me up..im really happy now..i promise i will be optimistic,coz that is the way to be happy under all circumstances.

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Thursday, May 24, 2007

from the beginning of the year,i told myself to be strong.i told myself i was not vulnerable,and was not going to show any sign of it.but it is hard..hard..i'm tired..too tired..i dont wanna care anymore..i tried.i tried.when i stood waiting for my parents for 1 hour,i didnt cry..i didnt want to cry..i didnt throw any tantrums when they arrived to pick me up..but i was SICK of that.i am sick of always trying to tell myself not to cry,to put a strong front in front of others..i am a crybaby..and...whatever i try to do,nobody will appreciate.im sick.sick sick sick.AARRRGGHH!!!nobody cares about me,they dont even know when im sad..they...they...care for others.in the eyes of my friends,i am somewhat a retard.yes i know it.and i am sick of it.i think about the past,and i get even sicker.really.to say the truth my relationship with everyone in mbs was not really close.i dont even keep in contact with anyone practically.i was a girl who was always alone.aways wandering by the canteen stalls,walking around and around.sometimes being alone makes me happier than being with the ppl who have hurt me..it makes me forget..it was the happy times..i pretty much managed with myself.played with myself.i wonder if i am suffering from depression,sometimes.
being lonely..
is sometimes nice..
some ppl will nvr experience it...

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Friday, May 18, 2007

i go friendster i c so many ppl their avatar is all pics of they all but me is not i cant help feeling realli sad and depressed...and they gt so many friends i so little only..nvm...i juz cherish the few close friends i have..but still...
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actually i dun wanna talk abt this 1 ,coz i dun wanna bring up the past..but...
today,after CO practice,i stood at the waiting area in my sch for 1 hr waiting for my mother..she told me 15 mins will coe liao,but she nvr,in the end i walk around and around coz i was too impaetient waiting for her and at 1 point,my father smsed me and said"reaching liao la.be patient"(the reason they were late to fetch me was becoz my father go see doctor.).but..but..
how can i be patient when ive waited for 1 hr for them?haiz...nvm.BE HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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